I have issues. Mental health issues. I guess we all do right? It's called a recession.
I have all these "irons in the fire", trying to generate income, make it better around my house, take some of the pressure off of myself with struggling to pay the bills. Nothing is panning out. I get my hopes up, then dashed. Up again, then dashed. Thought about getting them up, then dashed again.
THEN, I met a special man. One who took my breath away, said all the right things, made my heart twitterpate, and who promised me the moon and the stars. Who was unprepared for the hotness of me. Then he goes away and I am left still paying the mortgage on those moon and stars.
THEN, I meet 2 new men with the possibility to make things easier. One, doesn't like how many irons I have in the fire. The other, is damn busy and can't find his own iron. Dashed again.
THEN, because that wasn't enough for my little head to absorb, I meet yet one more man. A good man. One who doesn't know about my blog. One who is unprepared for the "naughtyness of me". One who thinks lactation is the kinkiest thing on the planet and was a little freaked out by it. A man who slept next to me all night long and held me close, but did not expect sex. A good man who kisses like a dream and plays with my hair, and brought me a flower on our first date. A man who craves intimacy as much as I do. He doesn't even own an iron.
So, here I sit, with my cat on the table next to me hiding his eyes. Bills still to pay and not enough money to pay them, working every minute I can to try and fill in the gaps. Missing time with my kids in the process. A double edged sword for sure. Days like today that just really fucking suck, when I work all day long and one thing after another happens and it turns out that I practically OWE my boss money. Thankfully I don't, but days like today are really tough.
I'm tired of working 6 and 7 days a week. I'm tired of wondering how I'm going to pay the mortgage and if they are going to turn off my power (again). So I have a request: Will one of you many thousands of people who read my blog, yes I see the counter go up you non-comment leaving fiends, but will one of you wave your magic wand and send me a benevolent man who just wants to make my life easier?
I would so appreciate that!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
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5 Potential Lovers Said...:
Hey Sexy Lady....you're spectacular and someone like you will eventually find the right, lifestyle partner that will make everything better....wish you lived closer to me ;)
I'm constantly drawn to your beautiful, sexual openness...you'd be a dream cum true for any man. Hang in there!
Dave
Lifestyleguy4play@yahoo.com
It sounds a bit like a commercial transaction, the way you've worded it.
If it truly is as straightforward as that, have you tried advertising? You have things to offer, you need financial help....sometimes clear intention is the way to go.
I enjoy your writing and your photos and hearing about your life, keep your head up and never give up and things will fall into place for you. {{hugs}} for you.
Time to grow up my dear. You want the sex, the naughtiness, the fun... but the guys that cum and go aren't going to give you the warmth and love and security that you deserve. You are smart and sexy and probably can find that in the right man. Sadly for you, odds are the right man will want you all for himself. I know I would. To hot to share. That's the way the world is.
Wow This post really hit home. I'm one of the guys you describe you want. And I have the same issues in life you do- up down up down up down.....down down. I too wonder why it is hard to meet the right person. You think you do and then- In your words "dashed". Everyone says hang in there- but holy hell- how long do I have to???
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