I refuse to grow up....

I'm responding to a comment left by Big Daddy on my Emotional Turmoil post.

He said I needed to grow up.  I disagree. I don't really think I need to "grow up". I don't find myself immature, or unable to function without the care and assistance of a man.  I don't think I act like a baby or that I need some daddy/male figure to direct and guide my every move.

I think, what I need to find, is the perfect man.  Stop laughing........I know, I know, that's why I'm single!  He doesn't exist.  In Big E I had a man who was really close....he was everything (save for finanically sound).  So I hold out hope.  In the meantime, for the most part, I enjoy myself.  I enjoy my friends, and going out, and having fun. 

I get lonely sometimes, and long for the closeness that intimacy with someone special holds. And in instances like last night when I met with someone to see if there was any "chemistry" I can get some of that.  And it holds me over for awhile. And that intimacy is given to me by some of my closer friends as well.

I get frustrated with finances, so I work harder, instead of depending on a man to do it for me.

I get horny, so I call one of my friends if they haven't called me first.

So, I don't think it's growing up I need to do, I just need to find the one man that's right for me.  Or, learn how to better be satisfied with the ones I do have in the interium.

I had a friend tell me the other day I have the "perfect man".  I looked at him quizzically.  He said, "how many guys do you see?"  I said "3".  He says......"So you take the best parts of each of the three and you have one perfect man." 

I've decided I need 4 - still looking for the one who can spoil me materially......LMAO!!!