Current Feelings

I have mixed up feelings right now.  My life is in a state of flux.  Many many things are changing around me.  My work, my part time jobs, my friends, my relationships.  Everything is in a flux.

With the holidays and the busy schedules, I haven't been playing as much.  It's actually been a little quiet around here.  I have to admit to having sex maybe once a week. 

My Christmas was okay.  Lonely without my kids.  Then my son got sick on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, then I got sick the day after that.  Just the stomach virus thing, no biggie, but missed a day of work.

Work has been horrendous.  Slow then slammed, having a hard time finding a good balance between it all. So I'm either flush or broke.  No happy medium, hopefully things will level out soon.

New Years Eve was great!  Was in Baltimore at a huge HUGE hotel bash with thousands of my closest friends.  Actually there were 6 of us who went, but we kept getting separated.  I shared my NYE with a good friend and lover.  Prior to the party we were in the room, providing a show for the people across the street in the other high rise hotel.  Lights on, curtains wide open, and lots of sex.  I do believe we even got some waves, some light flashes, and high 5 signs!  It was great.  I enjoy being an exhibitionist sometimes. We did the same thing after the midnight bell - more sex with the lights on.  It was great fun!  My friend is great fun too.

I find myself becoming quite attached to him.  We've been friends for several months now, and on and off lovers.  He is a swinger too. Somehow or another he has managed to consistently remain a part of my, persistently pursue my time, and has been very successful at it. To the point where he is now my most consistent and reliable lover. He talks to me every day, which is critical. Although he is married his wife swings too and they both know about everything.  He is good looking and fun to be with.  Great with any crowd.  That's all I need........another steady man in my life.  YIKES!!